I woke up le.. but.. my stomach hurt so badly... gosh...

I still have to go attachmnt....

Die!~

I feel so terrible...

Where are you ??

I'm not feeling well.. You're not by my side.... I miss you.. Hubby~~ *sob*

I'm so sick. My stomach so pain~

I vomitted.

I need you with me.. Come back to me please?

It's late... I know... I'm still not sleeping yet... I still got the stoopid Case Study hvn finish writing.

Met Marilyn YTD for dinner.... Laksa... We always eat that together....She was on Noon Shift, same as me... I miss her so bad... hahaz... *imagine 2 nursing student sitting at the foodcourt eating and laughing away for whole 45 minutes...*
Juicy gossips... thats what the both of us always does... Gossip... Dinner break YTD seem like so so short...

Cousin Michael came over to fetch me after work.... Wheee... He came to visit his friend's sister.. We Went for supper.. together with his friends... total like...10 of us... Went to Geylang for tow huay... Yummy....
He send me home after that.. so nice.. *thank you hor*

Cousin Emily.. She got back together with the first guy... shaoWei?? I saw their NeoPrint... OMG... Okie... Hope she doesn get hurt once more... Everyone must be happy ma...

I also wanna go take neoPrint... We said before... We took it tgther before long time ago... I feel like taking la... Please?? One more time ??

Okie... I better go continue that Case Study... Tmr I'm on Morning shift... erm.. is later.... Gosh.. Have to wake up at 5am... sheez... dont need to sleep liao la~~

Oei... Miss me hor!!

and...

Selamat Hari Raya~~

A week of attachmnt has past... I survived it... It's tough... But I'll stay strong...

Hahaz... so... What happen YTD?

Went out... With Yizan... Eh... Waileong... GTO... WongVoonFung.... Lychee... Been long since I enjoyed an outting like that...

Went over to Bugis, met up with NYizan first.. walked around before WaiLeong arrives....PoorBoy.... He's limping... FootRot... Poorthing... ZhiXian told me... SAF powder can aid in FootRot...

Went to Bugis street to walk... Met Zii.. hahaz.. she was with her fren shopping...

From Bugis... WongVoonFung drove us to CineLeisure... His driving skill is still GOOD!!!~~ Wahaha... I saw Cousin Emily outside CineLeisure.. I recognised her.. because she was wearing the NP Magnum Force Cheerleading Skirt... Heh...

Ate Cafe Cartel for dinner... Yummy... Shared with NYizan & WaiLeong...

Supposed to go watch movie... But in the end.. never go... ended up at..... Cheveron.. played dices... Watched soccer...

Then go Supper at BoonLay Market for supper... ate Nasi Lemak... So Bloated...

Went home late... Heh.... Watched Korean Drama - Full house.. last 2 episode...I dont know why I keep crying.. Weird... Maybe I thought of Lionel and past memories ba... Sad Sad.. Slept for 2 hours...

So tired... Tmr is a brand new week... I know I can survived it... Jia You~~

Lokun.. Stop calling me chicken~~ okie?? I know my fringe+my hair look like chicken.. But dont call me chicken la~

You promised me a tiara... Dont forget hor~~

I love you~

Tmr is attchmnt... I'm scared... Help...

I feel like talking to you suddenly.... why ?

I dreamt of Lionel last night.. Not really him... But his granny... Why ?
The dream was weird... like...
I went over to his place... purpose was to look for him... for what reason... I dont know...
He wasn't at home... so... yeah... I told granny.. I miss her Laksa.. she agreed to make forme.. How sweet.. so.... ... ... .. ....
all a dream la...

This attchmnt is gonna be tough... When I work evening shift... will you come over to pick me up?? *sob*

Wont be updating so frequently... Will be long... after I next update... Till then ....

Scream with me....

I feel so lost... Like living each day hopelessly, aimlessly, meaninglessly... Pointless... *sob* Hide myself away and cry.

Had a chat with Joseph YTD... And was talking bout how great it was during our 2002 Confirmation period... everything seem so well... years past and things changed... If only, things had remain the same... what would become of us ?

Hahaz, Exams results.. Out today... I did pretty badly.. it was expected ba... I didn't really expect high marks... Almost flunk one subject...

Well... My bloody eye is still swollen.... and the discharges are disgusting. It'll take some days to heal... Attachmnt strting soon... I haven get my hair cut yet. I cant go out with this eye la. Hmmm...

The left eye was swollen last night.... Eye Infection, a terrible one..... It hurt so badly I couldn't close it, I couldn't even blink....

In addition to that... I cried before i fell asleep.... I guess.... I shouldn't have...
If only ... if only... If only I could predict or I knew everything....

My eyes couldnt open this morning... I had to sit in front of the mirror... Trting to pull apart the lids... so many discharges... *Disgusting*

Now... The eye is so swollen that it is only one-third of the original size... and... It really looked disgusting... I look terribly UGLY.

I've seen pictures of those infections.. they give goose pimples.... *I dont wanna go blind*

Sheex... I cant go go hair cut today... Stoopid infection... Yeap.. I'm gonna cut my hair short.. not trimming... No point keeping long hair...

See.. My Brain age... With Training.... Finally.. I reached... AGE 20!! I can do it too....Heh... Improving ? or merely Luck ?

Its Luck.. I know... I can never be that good.... I'm not that clever...

Nothing in my life worth anything....

Attached ? I guess. I rather stay Single...

Maybe.. I'm just meant to be alone...

NYZ... to you.. I'm sorry.... I'm afraid... Really am... I really dont wish to..... I'm sorry... I hurt you... But...

Current Music?? ==> Guo Min - Yang Cheng Lin

Spending the whole night on the blog... Yea... a way to keep myself busy...

Why am I feeling this way ? Why do I have weird feelings after meeting you ? Argh.. I hate this kinda feelings... 'Ai Qing Guo Min Qi' - Sensitive...

I dont wanna look sad in front of others... esp you. I dressed up, applied make up, just to hide the sorrowful me... Putting up a strong front...

Guess.. Regrets are.. we haven fulfil the many things we planned.. like the BBQ ? the Zoo ? and many stuff...

I'm sure this kinda feeling will past... Soon after.. I will forget.... Yes I will...

I will not mention bout you in here anymore... this should past... hahaz... Good Bye Memories...

A tiring sunday... Woke up thanks to stoopid, inconsiderate people living above, blasting of those China music early in the morning at 9 AM.... Yes.. 9Am... I think if it happens again, I must call the police... !

Funny thing happened was... Neo YiZan msged me, and all I could reply was ... 'Help me call police...' and I tried try tried try tried try to fall back asleep, and.. yeah... Obviously, I couldn't... So darn IRRITATING....

To NYZ

I guessed, my reply to your msg this morning shocked you outta hell... Right ? Heh... Dont deny la....

So... in da Noon....
Went over to St Anne's Church... Grandpa's Death Anniversary. *Since 2001... eh... 1 yr.. 2 yrs...... now 2006.... 5 years...* So fast... Time flies... Then... I remmber, I was taking my examinations, and have to rush home for the funeral thing... But... thru the whole event... It really brought our family ties closer... But over the years.. it seem to have driften apart... again... *problems* I know Granny is unhappy... and... lonely....

Ahh.... God mommy saw the mosquito kisses on my body... and told me she had many too... Well.. I told her... Our Mossy Kisses are total different thing... I have one around my Left ArmPIT, and another one over at the right... One at my right knee... another one at the left... *Strange?* and... They keep coming back... Aww.... God mommy 'sayang' me.... *Cuddles*

Said prayers, chat, ate... and... all went their own way home....

To Emily/Jacqueline...

Eh... Anne's mommy hinting you to give her your one of your newborn puppies la ! " 1 female dog.. enough liao... no need 2, later give birth again how?.... lend me your female dog for one day la... "
... and... every year your papa buy curry puff... this year All Souls Day, if we going, change new food to buy ba... Budden.. those Curry Puff.. really Yummy leh....

And to Lionel ...

Thanks for taking time, coming over to meet me, returning my stuff... and yeah... accompanying me for dinner?

Anyways... Yeap.. and also... Thanks for remembering that... YOU OWE ME THE DO' BALL... You ate 'em while I fell asleep... *sob sob*
I rejected your offer just now... Becoz.. my stomach was so bloated already... Wahahaz... I guess... There will no longer be a second offer... so... The Do'Balls you owe... *forget it* Cancelled... No need to buy back.. wahahaz.

I guess...... This will be the last time we'll be meeting like this ba... Kinda sad everything ended like this... * 'my wrong' *

I dont think I will contact you for anything unimportant liao ba... * I didn't say you cant contact me... but I dont think you will...* You have a blissful life with your GF, Sharon... I dont wish any unnecessary misunderstandings... Heh heh...

Later in the evening...
Went to acc fren eat Burger King and then.. stoopidly, he complain of stomach ache, needa poo.. okie fine.. go home then.... What a day...

Came home... Sat at the comp.. started re-editing this blog... I've chnged the strting picture... Realised??

To me...
Receiving and losing are part & parcel of life... you get some, you'll loose some... Guess you sure realised this a long time ago right? No matter what.. Life carries on.. No point looking back...
If there are any memories you wish to keep.. keep it deep in your heart...

Love your family... Becos they love you... And.. You have to love yourself...